River’s message on Bill Richert’s answering machine

“Hello, Bill. If you’re asleep, please, by all means, ignore this message. But, in fact, if you are awake, then you’d better not ignore me…I had the most amazing day. It was just beautiful, the things I learned, through the pain and misunderstanding, and through being displaced, discombobulated. I come out on my last day of work as a triumphant failure. I stand here; need not I die nor I need drink, for I know that my soul will keep. And, who’s to say he or she is the one, for I to know from where it has begun…Doctor Bill..Where am I coming from? Who cares? Do I need to know where they’re coming from to get along with them? No, I accept them. But, I come from a place that is foreign, a place where no other eyes see…The stuff is so vague…In case.

And, did you know that? There is. A wait. Not. No. Sure. But maybe. That doesn’t matter. All those words. All those broken phrases. They don’t mean anything. But, where was the point?

    [Then, through the speaker can be heard a little voice crackling, saying:]

      You have missed the point. But, don’t take it upon yourself. Don’t carry that weight. It’s not your fault…I would say that it’s safe to guess that people simply don’t understand.[Beep.]”

        “It’s sometimes hard to understand what he meant,” says Bill. But still, Bill relates that he [River] “understood”. 

"There was something gorgeous about us being old together. River will be missed — period. I mean now, more than ever, I wish I could talk to him." - Joaquin Phoenix

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"We moved around a lot. When I was four years old, I heard ‘Fire and Rain’ a lot. So we were in Mexico and I was playing with a flashlight that was going dead, and we couldn’t afford any more batteries. My father asked me to please stop, but I wanted to see how far I could push someone, so I kept on turning it on and off. He said, ‘Could you please stop this?’ with a stern voice and took it out of my hand, put it in the glove box and slammed it. I felt this tremble, this fear of authority, and I felt I understood that you have to respect people. That there was a reason behind it. That was the first concept of reality as far as relationships go. I saw that there was not just this world of vagueness that you can bounce off of." - River Phoenix

"Boy is someone in search for absolute, looking for solace in wide spaces. Someone surviving by eating rodents and snakes, drinking from rain and the blood of the animals he killed. I’m not eating any animal flesh and I don’t feel having the right to take the soul of any living creature. But the movie character, on his side, belongs to the natural food chain, like Native Americans or Inuit. He’s entitled to live on earth’s natural resources." - River Phoenix

“There are certain things that once they hit air, it makes it stale for you. If you had a thought that was so nice and encased in your mind and you leaked it somehow and read it in the papers somewhere, it would no longer be your thought. It would belong to the page.”  — River waxes lyrical on keeping some things safe inside

(Source: riversyellowsunflower, via griever4leon)

"Don’t bite the hand that heals your wounds and keeps you fed/Mother dear was always there to tuck us into bed…"- River Phoenix